Saturday, December 24, 2005
this blog i'm goin to post more pics...
hehe...
xmas eve wor!!!
wish everyone a merry xmas!!!
later i'm goin ps wif jo...
hmmm...
:)
hope today can b happier if he dun smoke tt much...
:(
anyway...
i've make gifts for my aunt..
jo's sis n ma...
and i've gave gals their present!!!
they look like they really like it!!!
haha..
too bad i dun have pic to show everyone..
:(
hehe...
but i've pic of gifts amy n bi er gave me~
thankz my darlicious gals~
amy bought this super princess mirror for me..
hehe..
love it..
and she made a strawberry ring for me~
haha~
sweet n nice~
bi actually hand-made this cushion!!!
hehe..
pretty n cute card bi bi gave~
some random pics...
hehe..
simoney lost her way @ 3:31 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
simoney lost her way @ 7:52 PM
Saturday, December 17, 2005
sometimes i wonder..
y issit that we still love each other..
but we cannot b together..
i guess we can try to b together..
but its juz a guess..
even i can't b certain this time
i'll b sad.
but its normal.
i feel so..
in between..
like wat amy say...
not really fren, not really lovers.
i dun really liek this kind of feeling.
cos i'm more prone to the lovers side.
but he's more prone to fren side.
i hope we can get a clean.clear cut relationship.
but its so hard.
y.
i hope i can keep this..
affection for him deep in my heart.
and since he's so insistent on this break-up.
mayb he should also try.
its more work for me lor.
blah..
sometimes i asked him not to sms me anymore..
but i'll keep glancing at my hp times n times again.
haiz..
time can heal everything..
y is time passing by so slowly...
simoney lost her way @ 10:20 PM
after the very upsetting day...
i went retail therapy again today~
arghz!!
i spend $200!!!
arghz!!!
i'm so broke!!!!!
and i'm running short of time...
i haven get the time to buy gals' present...
and my little cousins present..
bOo...
and i dun have the mood to study...
:(
kinda happy wif the things i bought today~
actually i juz bought myself 2 tops from mango~
hehe!
and i got joseph's present.
his is damn exp.
BOO!
i wan to be happier!!!!!
simoney lost her way @ 10:08 PM
Friday, December 16, 2005
well well...
i was quite...
hmm..
regret for the break-up thing..
hai..
but its over..
and i get to realise wat a bastard he was..
he juz try to treat me gd n get some info tt he wan..
and he juz disappear..
hai...
wo min ku!!!!!
:(
very upset now...
hai...
in another 30 mins...
it should b "our ann"...
haiz...
he still dun even bother to contact me..
hai..
suddenly feel like crying...
mayb i juz have to get used to it..
after having some1 to care for me for 3 yrs..
its time for me to take care of myself...
hmm..
anyway...
my term test is coming...
and i wasted today doin some roche flower n playing wif baby...
and tml i'm goin to shop for xmas present~
hope i can get myself a dress~!
den i can wear it either on xmas eve or xmas day~
still wondering if i should still meet him on xmas eve.
feel like a cheap bitch now.
i dun even feel like goin out on xmas.
hai.
mayb i'm juz moody now...
today my darlicious mom acc me to cwp after dinner~
she's being so nice to me!!!
haha~
i juz love her...
even though today i didn;t get to buy anything...
i get to chat wif her...
hai...
she's so nice to me~
i muz b nice to her back!!!
feeling kinda down now..
:(
hope tml can b a better day~
get to shop shop!!
andafter tt i've to rush rush study le!!!
think i can only update blog after xmas???
bee...
can we meet out on xmas???
muahahah~
simoney lost her way @ 11:23 PM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
today is family day~
hohoho~
it was kinda fun~
with all the jokes n sight-seeing.
well..
today i finally get to see a real crocodile at
sungei buloh reserve park.
it was a small one.
but its real!!!
and its not trapped.
haha
not feeling very well...
i had diarrhea!
omg~
and a rather bad appetite.
:(
n adding to that,
my dad pass his cough to me!
i guess i'll have sore throat soon too..
:(
well well..
but this morning..
i overheard my mom toking to phone..
toking abt who;s goin to marry 1st etc.
i'm top on list
omg.
hai
this terrible terrible conversation juz makes my stomach turn.
haiz.
i seriously dread to climb out of bed.
bOo..
i wan to tell them.
i can't.
esp. when they're pinning so much hope on me.
mayb after 2 weeks or wat..den i break the news to them.
even when i think abt the whoel conversation makes me feel sick.
like the whole stomach turn sour.
omg!
or issit of the diarrhea thing??
haha!
and i really want to slim.
i wan to emphasize.
i wan to!
i have to!
i have to remind myself everyday!
every sec!
haha!
and i juz ate raw butterhead leaves juz now.
it taste so suck.
bOo.
i realise U're reading my blog everyday..
and U know who U are..
i really appreciate that..
:)
i know U still care for me..
i care for U too~
and i'm glad u miss me..
cos i also miss u
but in a different way!!!
hope wat i say won;t pressurize u.
anyway..
i juz like to remind U again..
NOT TO SMOKE.
as a friend i NEED to remind U
i HAVE to remind U.
i'm so scare u turn to smoking again.
:(
i hope u can quit that disgusting habit.
bad breath.
bad health.
wateva.
its juz so bad!!!!!!
-_-
i wonder when we can finally become frenz..
then i can finally skip to another chapter of my life.
simoney lost her way @ 9:48 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
well..
i'm still feeling abit down..
but i'm trying my best~
i went retail thrapy wif hb!
i really try hard to find christmas presents..
and i really find some suitable~
mayb in the nxt few days or week i'll go n get it..
hehe~
she;s being really nice acc me..
hoho~
i really nid to lost weight.
i need!
i have to!!
i skipped breakfast n lunch today..
but i ate 2 dinner!!!
omg!!
haha!
i w3alked home today again..
but i was told tt walking
might make my thigh bigger
-_-
..
i actually bought hula loop formyself today!
hoping tt it can b my fav. past time...
and make my stomach smaller..
haha!
but..i'm even too lazy to use the trimax 808..
hula hoop??
haha
now tt i'm single i really nid to care more abt my
body,size, weight n all...
and my skin conditions etc.
did i mention i got a cut or wateva on my forehead??
it hurts.
and i've to put on a thick make up to cover it..
:(
i bought myself earrings again!!!
haha!
i accidently commented tt some design look like those wore by disco gal or mamasan.
and so happen the lady boss was wearing tt specific design.
and she happened to heard my comment.
Oopps....
haha
she didn;t get very offended but it was funny la.
haha!
after talking to hb..
i realised alot of pple break-up cos...
the guy want to have fun!
well..
it actually happened to me!
for a moment i was even thinking of waiting of joseph
to get over his ns and get together again.
no.
i won't.
luckily this thought only lasted for 2 sec.
haha!
i still miss him..
but the feeling is not as strong..
hmmm..
i sms him only once a day..
and i really appreciate when he reply.
haha!
i mean..i miss him..
but i'll only msg him as a fren!
give me more time!!!
haha!
anyway..
i still dun have the courage to tell my parents.
i know they'll b understanding.
but i still dun wan them to know.
mayb after i really settle down le den let them know...
but not letting them know is also very...
u know.
and today my mom juz remind me how similar i n jo WERE.
like..
both of us speak hokkien,
both of our family r half buddlism/catholic
both of us looking more n more alike.
:(
hmmm..
i duno wat to say~
omg!
and i still dun have the courage to delete our photos.
i need more time.
haha!
i liek being occupied.
it keeps my mind away from thinking abt the whole break-up thinggie
and i went shopping today.
i walked home today.
and i blog.
and tml i'm goin out wif my family.
haha!!!
sungei buloh~
nice place!
i'm doing some exercise :walking!!!
how many days b4 i can shake off all my fats??
haha!
i muz really slim down!!!
arghz!
i muz also save money!!!
hmmm...
lotsa present to buy!!!
i also need to put in more time in my studies~
this sem is not a very nice sem for me.
with all the dry theory n boring projs.
bOo!
i also hope joseph can b my fren soon.
i'm sure we can still go out as a fren..can we??
i'll b so boring n stuff.
if not..
i'll have to force hb to go out wif me more often!!!
haha!
*i'm so boring tt i read princess dairy-lame lame lame.. :(
simoney lost her way @ 9:31 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
i'm free.
HAHA
well...
not exactly very happy,
but i;m not sad too..
haha
i feel as though i'm being normal.
but it was quite..
upsetting when my parents keep asking y HE's not here.
y HE's not goin to sch wif me.
y He didn;t acc me home.
y i didn't go out wif HIM
i guess everyone is so used to it.
including me~
but some how i feel lighter..
haha!
i muz clarify..
at least in my stand.
i choose break-up not b'cos we had a quarrel.
or disagrreement.
or b;cos i dun love him anymore.
its juz tt..
we can;t compromise with each other anymore.
i guess we've been together for too long ba..
hehe..
my dad's rite.
love is liek eating sour plum.
its juz there..
and if u leave it in ur mouth too long,
it'll go tasteless.
u might say: i can always change a new one ma...
but is it tt easy??
wat abt those juicy part tt stuck betw ur tooth??
haha~
gross
anyway..
u can juz change it!
the taste will stuck in ur mouth for quite some time..
my dad was hoping tt i can actually get married soon,
and get him a grandchild soon~
empty hope now...
still dun have the courage to break this new to him~
anyway..
my mom will always say..
u so fast pick "carrot" liao ar?
the market so big..mayb later u'll find "cabbage" or better things
that suits u
y make up ur mind so soon?!
yes..
i pick so-call "carrot" 1st..
n i carry it around for 3 yrs.
but it doesn;t mean i can;t change it.
cos i'm still very young..
but anyone remember the story abt choosing christmas tree?
like a guy was told to walk straight into a jungle of christmas tree,
and he muz choose 1 out of so many.
he can only choose 1,
and he cannot turn back.
in the end..he picked a.."not-so-nice" christmas tree.
cos he was left wif no choice!
hmmm..
well....
at least no one say i can only choose 1 throughout my whole life!!!
hahaha
alot of pple actually doubt this "break-up" thing will actually..
last.
liek we'll patch w/i a few days..
or even in the next few hrs.
but i'm quite sure...
at least 90% sure.
we're through this time~
well well..
i'm happy i'm coping so well..
and i know u're coping well too..
:)
even though i feel abit upset tt u feel happy w/o me,
but i'm happier to know ya happy~
hehe~
:)
i'll find more activites to occupy myself.
and its time to slim down~
:(
lotsa exam n project coming up~
Boo hOo!
busy busy!
did i mention i actually have to sit for 6 paper this sem??
bOo!!!!!!
simoney lost her way @ 9:10 PM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
why issit that i'm smiling when i'm feeling so hurt inside?
every step took, i can feel my my heart breaking..
well..
its a big step out for me.
i shall put a mask everywhere i go..
i shall hide the sadness in my face.
i shall put past behind me & look ahead.
2yrs, 9mths, 21 days.
i will bear the loneliness, the darkness.
alone.
i shall hold my tears.
i shall b happy.
i shall.
i wish.
simoney lost her way @ 9:32 PM
