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Sunday, April 30, 2006

as broswing some of "our" stuff...
all those left were memories...

"we" dun exist anymore...

'03 xmas..
he gave me a card and cd...
kinda sweet..

reading some of the letters he wrote for me...
esp those he gave me when i went genting

the once sweet him..

when its finally over...
will try to get back the photo album...
muz keep for memorial ba...
afterall...

he had been part of my life for 3 yrs...

the withered roses were still kept in my cardboard..
1 purple and1 white self-made rose from him..

he said...

he dun remember how to make the flowers already..

he already start to forget me..
forget abt us..

spend sometime reading his past blogs...
so sweet...

lol...
can only smile at those memories...

we've only break for 12 days...
and..
the truth is..
he's forgetting me..

:(

what can i do..

slowly wiping away my tears...

all the bad things happen to me..

meeting lynn later..
at least got a shoulder for me to lean on..


:)

thanks frenz~


i might b sad..
but not as sad as before..
when i tok to him...
i dun feel sad or expecting things from him anymore..

guess...

i'm moving on...

simoney lost her way @ 2:42 PM



Saturday, April 29, 2006

wat could be worst??
hai..

kena ditched by ur bf of 3 yrs?

knowing that ur brother is ogin army soon?

have to stand for 10 hrs..folding clothes non-stop?

kena threaten by supervisior that if the clothes are messy, u cannot go home..
and some stupid, brainless customer juz keep on messying ur clothes.

kena molested by 1 pervertic uncle?

he squeeze my butt k?!

fuck damn!

everything happen to me.

holy fucking shit mood now.


if i got the chance..

i'll dig out all the eyes of the customers...
who choose to IGNORE my PRESENCE!
and keep digging for clothes!!!

i'll chop off their hands.

slowly cut out their ears.

for that uncle..

i'll skin u alive.

y issit in the saddest part of my live..

i've to face so much more problem...


losing him is enough..

and my bro is leaving in few mths time..

:(

i miss them..


dun feel like working anymore..


:(

i'm so upset.

hai.

so stress up..

simoney lost her way @ 11:58 PM



Friday, April 28, 2006

in sch..having major project now..
so bored...
finally friday..and hooray to weekends!!!
5 days in sch doing almost nth useless is painful...
torturous...

giving me more time to think of him..

thankz maine...
thankz bee..
thankz gals(amy, bi er and nabz!!!) ...
thankz qx..
thankz lynn..

really appreciate everyone..

but..
most importantly...
thankz my parents and family!!

1st few days were really..
living hell..

my dad even come early every morning to see if i'm ok..
thankz dad...
will always rmb u say de...
"gan ni ze yang...zhun ni pa pa de wo zhen de hen xin tong"
"c u like tt..being ur dad..really feel heartache"

i know

i know u love me..
mom loves me deeply too..

aunt call every night to chat wif me...
listen to my cryings..
giving me console..

some of my cousins even make time to shop wif me...

:)

so sweet of everyone..

maine and bee gave me most of the support..
thankz alot!!!

not forgetting my gals in sch~
love u gals!

been goin out almost everyday...
but..
i'm carrying "him" where ever i go..

i know...
i should let him go...

been through alot..
c our dreams shattered..
him slowly disappearing in my life...

trying to numb myself...
get goin out...
force a smile..
try to look happy..

deep inside..
no one really knows

qx is right...
no point goin out..
have fun...
trying to put a strong front...

no pt proving to everyone i'm fine
no pt acting to everyone that i'm happy now

when i'm not..

juz be myself...
juz cry

hai..
mayb..
i've cried so much...
there's no tears le..

hai..


listening to "zhen de"..

zhen de...

he's gone...

he's really in a world where i,
simone,
fen,
his ex-dear,
his ex-pig pig,

dun exist...

he's leading his new life somewhere..

he's really gone..


no matter how much i try..
he's gone.

hold my tears.

i hope i'm recovering...

i hope...
i wish...

hai..

too many memories...
too many shadows of him...


can;t hlp myself..
sms him..
care for him..
remind him...

i can;t stop...


i hope...
one day...

i can think of him..
as a fren..

tt's wat everyone wants from me..

but please.
i nid time.

simoney lost her way @ 4:22 PM



Saturday, April 22, 2006

i miss him so....


love him..
so i let him go...

he's high above..soaring free..

but i'm still stuck in this living hell...



i hope..

i can b like him...


give me a few mths...

bear with me for a few more mths...


i'll walk out of this shit...


miss him..
love him...

but its all over..


he's in another world..
where..

i dun exist anymore...


bye my love...


say hi to this cruel world...

simoney lost her way @ 11:32 AM



Thursday, April 20, 2006

one by one..
my precious baby leava me...

my hamster...
my hp baby...

now...


my 38 month old relationship..

all mankind is selfish


leave me alone

simoney lost her way @ 9:09 PM