Wednesday, November 29, 2006
29th nov: i loved itwhen we walked home together, can chit chat and laugh our way home
30th nov: he once said i took up 70% of his life...
i'm so happy with my MP presentatin can?!
haha!
thanks my babess (qin and laney)!!!!!!
"good job"
wahahaha!
rushing report now.
tired..
*__*
tired, but i'm happy~
simoney lost her way @ 11:50 PM
Monday, November 27, 2006
27th nov: he stay over at my house once~so cute and funny! blessful to wake up seeing him in my house..lol..long gone memories
fuck up mood.
wat can i do?
i ain't in the wrong.
simoney lost her way @ 11:55 PM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
26th nov: i luv to wear his red long sleeve top whenever i go oversea~ :)
freaking.
last seen blog=7pm,counter is 1000
now,counter is 1015
hmm,
who read my blog?
anyway,
juz had a 1.5hr chat with bee.
feel so much better.
:)
had a blister frm yesterday's dancing.
PAIN!
simoney lost her way @ 1:03 AM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
25th nov: he used to be very caring and oberservant towards me. USED TO.
thanks bi the most for last night clubbing.
feel real stress up n hurt.
so pain,
i can hardly breathe..
simoney lost her way @ 8:52 PM
Friday, November 24, 2006
thanks ghim or entertaining me.
thankz babes.
thankz bee.
y do i feel like crying now?
luv u all
24th nov: i juz read the past history message log of our conversation. where is the guy who used to say the sweetest thing on earth? where is the guy who will entertain me no matter how bad my mood is? where is the guy who will talk to me about everything under the sun?
when will a new guy appear in me life?
i'm still unhappy
simoney lost her way @ 12:34 AM
| Yammylicious | but a ctually i can feel ur sadness | |||||||
| simoney~ | tired | |||||||
| simoney~ | now? | |||||||
| Yammylicious | but i duno how to comfort u | |||||||
| Yammylicious | these days | |||||||
| simoney~ | its ok.. | |||||||
| simoney~ | lol... | |||||||
| simoney~ | time will heal everything... | |||||||
| Yammylicious | yeaaa | |||||||
| Yammylicious | look me up. | |||||||
| Yammylicious | i will be on standby 24 hrs a day k | |||||||
| Yammylicious | i see u sad, i duno what to do. | |||||||
| simoney~ | haha.. | |||||||
| simoney~ | is it tt obvious...? | |||||||
| simoney~ | tt i'm sad...? | |||||||
| Yammylicious | eh, i felt it | |||||||
| simoney~ | its ok de...i also dunoy i sad | |||||||
| simoney~ | lol.. | |||||||
| Yammylicious | i understand.. | |||||||
| Yammylicious | hard to explain also | |||||||
| simoney~ | yeah.. | |||||||
| Yammylicious | but i really can feel. | |||||||
| Yammylicious | but everytime when i felt that, i can only feel useless | |||||||
| Yammylicious | coz i duno what to do.. | |||||||
| simoney~ | haha., | |||||||
| simoney~ | no al | |||||||
| simoney~ | with u babes bymy side really cheer meup lor | |||||||
| Yammylicious | i know. but i guess ur pain. none of us can relieve it |
luv yammylicious,
i guess she knows how i feel..
| 7:09:24 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | but, ireally not angryor upset with them... | |||||
| 7:09:31 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | i know | |||||
| 7:09:34 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | just sa | |||||
| 7:09:37 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | sad | |||||
| 7:09:38 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | plain sad | |||||
| 7:09:39 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | juz.. | |||||
| 7:09:42 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | mayb | |||||
| 7:09:43 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | abit | |||||
| 7:09:50 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | alsowon;t feel sad | |||||
| 7:09:52 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | like canot seem to cheer up | |||||
| 7:09:56 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | i alsoduno wat's tt feeling | |||||
| 7:09:59 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | yeah... | |||||
| 7:10:12 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | yea | |||||
| 7:10:15 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | i understand | |||||
| 7:10:23 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | yeah | |||||
| 7:10:25 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | lol... | |||||
| 7:10:44 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | make myself bz,occupied.. | |||||
| 7:10:51 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | juz seems so... | |||||
| 7:10:54 PM | simoney~ | Yammylicious | won;t happy | |||||
| 7:11:36 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | yeaaa | |||||
| 7:11:49 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | u cant make urself happy just becoz u wan urself to be happy | |||||
| 7:11:57 PM | Yammylicious | simoney~ | its a feeling. |
suddenly,
i felt as though
i'm the most unhappy woman,
nothing will make me happy again..
simoney lost her way @ 12:19 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
21th nov: he udsed to kiss me so that i won't notice the coming bus, and spend more time with me
22th nov: he used tosent mehome and had long chats alnong my crridor.
23thnov: i used to think he look the most handsome when he's concentrating, esp when he's doing A-math
a mistake that haunt.
why,
with al lthe sound and music that blast inmy ear,
yet all i can hear
is my own sorrow
simoney lost her way @ 11:50 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006
20th nov: we used to take the escalator up and down at cityhall, juz to admire the lights that changes color...lol...tt was long long long ago..
quoted from lane's blog...
"Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.
It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations.. "
so true.. i shall learn from this...
gd luck for my quiz tml~
simoney lost her way @ 6:25 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
19th nov: he used to get very bothered and sad after every quarrel, unable to slp. i rmb our quarrel on our 4th month ann, he sent me a sms at 4am, sayinghe feel like singing "ai hen jian dan". i still cried when i listen to that song.
hee, some pple actually commented i look prettier now~
hee..i hope tt's the truth..
lol..
i realised luck is not on my side,
the guy i admired is quiting his job.
:(
anyway,
quote of the day:
"hey! how come u slim down so much ar?"
lol, quoted from BROAN.
lol.
simoney lost her way @ 12:44 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
18th nov: we used to take pblic transport tgt, there's once he tried to lick the pole and make me laugh. lol. he will always hug me or held my hands whenever we're tgt~ :) ;competing puzzle bubbles.
simoney lost her way @ 10:55 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006
quoted from sheena's blog...
A successful relationship requires falling in love many times,
always with the same person...
issit true?
i dun think so.
lol.
that quote is funny
the next quote from her blog seems..
more logical..
true..
lol..
"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be."
true in my case.
simoney lost her way @ 8:55 PM
should b a ann celebration today.
hee...
but its ok.
i shall rush my proj and revision for my free time!
17th nov: we celebrated our ann monthly, shower each other with gifts and love. he used to gave me roses during our ann..hee...we were once sweet.
simoney lost her way @ 3:08 PM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
15th nov: he bought me lotsa food and snacks almost everynight when i'm working at GES. and specially came to acc me for lunch when he's free even if its his O level year..
simoney lost her way @ 11:41 PM
let's flash back wat happen for the nov' 04 and nov'05
november 2004
-juz get to know huiyan dying from liver failure
-he waited for me after work to eat n shop with me.
-bougth a handbag and a couple long sleeves top.
-worked at taka christmas fair
-qx bday celebration
-i went cameron highland
november 2005
-juz back from thailand, buri ram
-went to work taka jap fair
-highlighted my hair
-he pierce his ears for me
-i rejected a cafe cartel job
-he bought me new eye shadow and a purse
-feel scare of gaining weight
-felt helpless having one 1 best fren in sch (nab)
-going genting with my family
hee..
info gathered from past blog
having a blog is gd,
so u can reflect and realise actually time flies.
so fast.
lol
pple who were once there weren't there anymore...
like..
huiyan..
my ex-bf...
lol...
memories can b laughable, yet painful.
i rmb a story abt a couple getting divorced,
so the wife requested the husband to carry her to the door step everyday for 1 month.
in the end,
they got back.
'cos they had once forgotten the past, and the intimacy they once shared.
i;m not goin to get back with joseph anymore,
but i wan to make this breakup memorable.
and to show tt i didn't forget the past,
for this month,
8th nov-8th dec.
i'm goin to write abt something we had done, everyday.
8th nov: he sang me xiao wei at the reservoir
9th nov: he celebrated my 16th bday with me. a big tigger as present.
10th nov: quarrelled cos i refuse to say he's my bf in the bus stop
11th nov: he rushed from the funeral thing when he get to know i'm missing
12th nov: he acc me for sunday breakfast everyweek
13th nov: he acc me for revision for O level everyday, juz there.
14th nov: he held my hand on bus 903 for the1st time.
i nv would wan to lost a precious fren liek him,
but...
i guess i can;t force him to b my gd fren..
he'll always b a fren i tresure.
life's sad.
u have to treat someone who knows u the most,
a total stranger.
simoney lost her way @ 12:31 AM
Monday, November 13, 2006
we've made a choice.
and i hope its the right choice.
5 days of work this week.
i will survive.
simoney lost her way @ 9:57 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
lol...look at how packed my ward robe is...and..alot of my stuff is still washing ordrying...lol...
wardrobe: (shouting!) i hate getting stuffed!!!!
lol.
heee...
quite a enjoyable weekend...
*_* fri *_*
scored well for my presentaion viva1!!!!
lol!!!
triple cheers to SIMONEY,LANEY & QIN!!!
quite pissed off by his attitude.
if he dun wan to pass me the stuff nicely, he could have said earlier.
everything's in a mess.anda top stained.
but its ok, i know its quite hard to manage my clothes cos most of them are white,
and white clothes r hard to maintain.
so its ok.
but he could have apologise instead of giving me attitude.
p/s: he make me sms n apologiseto his sister when my skirt stained her top, and he scolded me when my top is stained.
men r selfish.
bOo!!!
after family dinner, went out with my babes!!
chatting at BK before heading to k-box at cine..
sang overnight...
heee...
fun fun fun!!!
like disturbing amy n bi when they doze off!
issit true that when u're feeling down, u won't feel tired easily??
cos ur mind is too filled with thoughts ,u can;t slp?
anyway, i didn;t feel tiredness tt night...
but fall aslp as soon as i board the train!
lol!
thankz bi and amy for acc me!
thankz alvin for waiting and getting jacket for me!
*^_^* sat *^_^*
after a 1 hr napped,
i went work late...
kena said by alvin :(
and other than being in daze and selling stuff,
i'm making mistakes.
lol.
-stained new jacket with chilli saucce (tt really pissed alvin off!)
-fall from the ladder
-keying the wrong amt for purchase
-get wrong product for customer
-having shoe box falling on me
i'm a failure.
but i start to feel better when some funny customers came,
and asked if i want to go zouk out.
lol
any body interested?
lol!
went home.
thought for tt night
there's a story behind every drop of tears...
can u read mine?
*(^_^)* sun *(^_^)*
woke up after a 4 hrs slp.
went ikea.
shopped like heelllllllllll....
totally shagged out.
but i luv my brothers,parents.
lol
back out from a haircut.
hee..
thought of the day:
i want to get myself a real nice shoe.
nine west.
total slping hrs for these 3 days: <10>
i'm losing appetite also
total intake for 3 days:
-fri: a packet of vitasoy
: 1/4 rice with food for family dinner
-sat:1 piece of pumpkin
:4 piece nuggets
-sun:1 saugage
:1 packet of hello panda
breaking up is gd.
signs of slimming!!!!!
at times,
i still miss him so much.
my heart is aching,
save me
simoney lost her way @ 11:19 PM
Friday, November 10, 2006
i thought everything has came to the end.
i know we're unsuitable.
i've accepted the fact that his hobbie is more impt than me.
i've accepted the fact tt i wouldn't wan tto go back,
'cos i dun wan to b the 2nd in his life.
lol..
and i though with this reason,
i can put everything behind.
no pain, no sorrow
no sadness.
now i get the truth.
he was lying behind my back all the while.
he smokes.
lol.
and i put my whole trust in him.
ha.
now think,
who knows what he 's been doing all those night??
bleah.
i dun wish to think anymore!
hee..
i shall b forgiving and take all these lightly!
\(*-*)/
thankz babes for taking n cheering me up~
thankz for babe's company!!!
hee..
thankz bee for being so nice too~
thankz alvin for his company also~
:)
and i realise i can, too,
do alot of thing even without him!
mighty mighty mighty simoney!
3 cheers!
i'm a happy gal.
i shall b a happier gal!!!
k through the night!!!
lol
guess for the nxt few days or weeks,
i will b too bz to blog.
lol...
work.
project.
renovation.
meeting out with frenz.
god.
i dun even have enough time to breath.
lol
whoosh whoosh whoosh!
jia you jia you jia you!!!!!!
looking forward to a brand new day everyday~
cheerios~
simoney lost her way @ 2:32 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
a song to describe my feeling.
present:
blind-lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go simoney lost her way @ 10:24 PM
Friday, November 03, 2006
u thought u luv it this way.
u thought.
but by the time u realise.
it aint luv.
but u're sinking in.
u're stucked in it.
stp struggling.
u might find ur self sinking deeper.
wait.
waiting for someone to pull u out.
u waited. in silence.
when?
when will tt someone come?
where's the helping strenght?
when will fate bring u n him tgt?
.stuck.
and u're still waiting.
.help.
-silent-
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been busy with sch n work recently~
:)
spend alot recently.
2 shorts
3 slippers
1cd
3 tops
1 skirt
broke.
yeah..
been feeling down recently.
every single thingget on my nerves.
damn.
i'm losing interests.
and i stare at the long journey ahead.
.blank.
simoney lost her way @ 1:55 AM
