Wednesday, July 25, 2007
its so..
GOD DAMN TRUE.
omg..
how you feel about yourself now
You feel discontent or uneasy and feel a need for a change in your life, a new direction, perhaps even an adventure. You might not know where you want to go, just that you don’t want to stay where you are. It's a time for optimism and major decisions - unexpected influences could have a powerful effect on your decision making. Ask yourself, is what you desire really the right thing for you?
what you most want at this moment
The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is some joy and pleasure in your life, perhaps a long needed holiday in the sun to re-charge your batteries. You may have been through a period of challenges or a time of limbo and inactivity. The Sun heralds an ending to difficulties and a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby.
your fears
You fear letting go, yet this place of limbo and indecision is not a good place to be. Are you being emotionally blackmailed so you don’t go? Don’t be the victim. Sometimes we have to have the strength to let go to attract new positive possibilities in our life.
what is going for you
Despite the fear and bewilderment you feel, and the seeming difficulty of the path you have chosen, keep going - all will eventually turn out fine. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair; it also shows us how to be open to new and unexpected possibilities.
what is going against you
Insecurity is a devil that taunts us but only if we listen to that ‘doubting Thomas’ we all have in our heads. Ignore it. What do your instincts tell you? Perhaps you don’t like what they say? Well you could always go against your instincts, but we all know what that leads to don’t we!
outcome
Courage and self-belief is what you need to succeed. You may already feel overflowing with this, and if so there’s no doubt you will achieve what you want with your career, finances and love life. If you are feeling negative, look inward for that strength and courage, you know you are capable of having self-belief and you’ll reap great rewards.
SO TRUE!
http://www.free-tarot-reading.net/readings/0_reading.php
yes,
it says i can succeed with self belief,
hope my worries can really b eased when my baby's born!
i juz need to keep going!
so cool,
cos its so true.
haha!
simoney lost her way @ 11:43 AM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
i felt so guilty for saying this over dinner juz now
'well, i;m not so keen to have this baby'
(so ashame of myself for saying this after some self-reflection)
i feel so bad.
i should have added that i felt this way initially,
but now..
i really love my baby lots.
hmm..
juz wan to hold him and tell this precious baby juz how much i love him~
i felt guilty that i would wan to work after my baby's born.
:(
but not only for selfish reason,
but i really need the money to pull through these few yrs..
i hope one day my baby will understand my absence when he's still young.
there're so many problems n obstacles all along this road of growing,
sacrificing for my baby, and my new family,
sometimes,
i juz can;t make everything perfect.
i really wish i can continue my studies after giving birth,
but who's goin to support my family financially??
i also wish i can spend more time with my baby after he;s born,
but the same prob occur.
seriously,
u need money to survive in this society.
juz another way of expressing maternity love i guess.
i feel so guilty for not pointing put joseph's gd pt every time,
but i can't help it.
he's really sweet in his own way,
but juz not to perfection.
i might as well confess that i'm not a gd wife also.
i spent money on gd food,
and this poor guy,
have to work on both weekend so that we got enough money to spend for the week.
i'm not being very understanding at times,
although i really try hard to let him chill out with his frenz/cousins
once/twice a week.
i can;t really hide the unhappiness that he rather spend time with them than with me.
and i;m upset that he;s spending so much on lottery every week,
even though he's the one who's making income.
-_-
i wish i can do wateva other suggested,
make him listen to me,
make him stay with me,
make him respect me more.
but i can't.
cos he's diff from others.
i can't force him to b wat he can't b.
well,
let's juz pray that i and him can last~
simoney lost her way @ 12:37 AM
Monday, July 16, 2007
i'm so envious of other couples.
they're so sweet,
24/7 sticking tgt..
i even have 1 of them tellhing me that the place he frequently is
1)his house
2)her house
3)his work place
4)her work place(to fetch her)
5)his sch
6)her sch
-_-..
and they've been tgt 3 yrs already~!
no,
we're nv such couple (with joseph).
even now, married.
i'm not like tt.
my cousin, married.
is like that.
super sweet n totally dependent on each other.
i'm filled with jealousy suddenly.
mayb its my pregnancy that leads to my emotion unstability
i've been hoping so much that joseph can change for me,
but i guess our 4 yrs plus relationship had SHAPED us to wat we're today.
he's so used to my independence.
he's so used to the freedom i gave him.
i'm so pregnant now (8th month),
and he won't actually worry much abt me taking bus all the way down,
from woodlands to bedok.
juz to have dinner with him.
hai.
my cousin can actually wake up his husband,
in the middle of the night,
and asked for his console when she's having trouble having slp.
no.
not me.
unless i wan a gd scolding from a half-conscious him.
he's gd in his own ways,
juz not to my perfection.
he did sweet things also,
juz mayb...
not enough?
i duno.
tml's our 53th month ann already.
mayb its the hormones acting up.
nonetheless,
i still love him.
as much as 4 yrs ago..
*^_^*
simoney lost her way @ 8:09 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
in the end..
my baby bought me this watch as a surprise present!
hahahhaha!
love him n the watch lots...
hee..
simoney lost her way @ 2:10 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
is this watch nice???
i'm still thinking if i should buy...
cos...
i duno how to read analog watch!
lol..
went for watch hunting..
in the end bought a diesel watch for joseph~
using my hard earn money lo..
past saving...
hee..
went out shopping n walking alot recently,
gues i'm so scare of cinfinement,
n the idea of not goin out for 2 months..
BoO!!
went MS shopping n jo buy me a MNG shade,
n 1 zara top,
both on sales!!!
yippey~
n he buy himself a new lime color crocs..
lol
went to eat at MOF~
the food is really nice!!!!
lol..
i n jo really like it
lol~
another fav. hang out place after pregnancy...
stroll at the beach..
n..
we'll always have MAC!
lol
jo's fav ice chocolate n oreo cheese cake~
& my hot milk~
lol
been trying real hard to b a happy mother..
but its kinda hard..
lol..
followng pics might b disturbing for some,
so skip it if u have weak heart..
lol!!!
super super hot weather..
my feet has got such bad rashes...
n its getting harder n harder to scrtach it..
with the super big belly obstructing my way...
lol~
as all of u can c..
my stomach is bigger than my 14" lappy!!!!!!!!!!
*****not porn ok...*****
my stomach is so stretched n heavy n round...
n big..
n ugly...
n funny...
lol~
the weaher recently is so hot...
n i;m having super bad heart burn..
feet n palms burning
n heart pumping so hard..
damn the bad weather..
its making the whole situation worst!
i nid to shower myself twice daily..
n use small towels to wipe myself multiple times per day!
terrible!
actually i should b happy n satisfy with my life..
my family loves me..
even though they always like to tease me
"y u come home today ah?"
n it hurts sometimes..
my husband who...
treat me quite well...
my in-laws..
who give me all the freedom..
n providing us with funds..
really appreciate them lots~
i think i gonna put up a list of things i nig for my baby,
so for baby shower..
my frenz can buy us things i n baby really nid..
haha~
can i put LV bag on the list??
lol..
i will try to update more often!
1 n 1/2 months to go~
HURRRAYY!!
simoney lost her way @ 1:34 PM
