Friday, December 09, 2005
i'm free.
HAHA
well...
not exactly very happy,
but i;m not sad too..
haha
i feel as though i'm being normal.
but it was quite..
upsetting when my parents keep asking y HE's not here.
y HE's not goin to sch wif me.
y He didn;t acc me home.
y i didn't go out wif HIM
i guess everyone is so used to it.
including me~
but some how i feel lighter..
haha!
i muz clarify..
at least in my stand.
i choose break-up not b'cos we had a quarrel.
or disagrreement.
or b;cos i dun love him anymore.
its juz tt..
we can;t compromise with each other anymore.
i guess we've been together for too long ba..
hehe..
my dad's rite.
love is liek eating sour plum.
its juz there..
and if u leave it in ur mouth too long,
it'll go tasteless.
u might say: i can always change a new one ma...
but is it tt easy??
wat abt those juicy part tt stuck betw ur tooth??
haha~
gross
anyway..
u can juz change it!
the taste will stuck in ur mouth for quite some time..
my dad was hoping tt i can actually get married soon,
and get him a grandchild soon~
empty hope now...
still dun have the courage to break this new to him~
anyway..
my mom will always say..
u so fast pick "carrot" liao ar?
the market so big..mayb later u'll find "cabbage" or better things
that suits u
y make up ur mind so soon?!
yes..
i pick so-call "carrot" 1st..
n i carry it around for 3 yrs.
but it doesn;t mean i can;t change it.
cos i'm still very young..
but anyone remember the story abt choosing christmas tree?
like a guy was told to walk straight into a jungle of christmas tree,
and he muz choose 1 out of so many.
he can only choose 1,
and he cannot turn back.
in the end..he picked a.."not-so-nice" christmas tree.
cos he was left wif no choice!
hmmm..
well....
at least no one say i can only choose 1 throughout my whole life!!!
hahaha
alot of pple actually doubt this "break-up" thing will actually..
last.
liek we'll patch w/i a few days..
or even in the next few hrs.
but i'm quite sure...
at least 90% sure.
we're through this time~
well well..
i'm happy i'm coping so well..
and i know u're coping well too..
:)
even though i feel abit upset tt u feel happy w/o me,
but i'm happier to know ya happy~
hehe~
:)
i'll find more activites to occupy myself.
and its time to slim down~
:(
lotsa exam n project coming up~
Boo hOo!
busy busy!
did i mention i actually have to sit for 6 paper this sem??
bOo!!!!!!
simoney lost her way @
9:10 PM
