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Friday, April 28, 2006

in sch..having major project now..
so bored...
finally friday..and hooray to weekends!!!
5 days in sch doing almost nth useless is painful...
torturous...

giving me more time to think of him..

thankz maine...
thankz bee..
thankz gals(amy, bi er and nabz!!!) ...
thankz qx..
thankz lynn..

really appreciate everyone..

but..
most importantly...
thankz my parents and family!!

1st few days were really..
living hell..

my dad even come early every morning to see if i'm ok..
thankz dad...
will always rmb u say de...
"gan ni ze yang...zhun ni pa pa de wo zhen de hen xin tong"
"c u like tt..being ur dad..really feel heartache"

i know

i know u love me..
mom loves me deeply too..

aunt call every night to chat wif me...
listen to my cryings..
giving me console..

some of my cousins even make time to shop wif me...

:)

so sweet of everyone..

maine and bee gave me most of the support..
thankz alot!!!

not forgetting my gals in sch~
love u gals!

been goin out almost everyday...
but..
i'm carrying "him" where ever i go..

i know...
i should let him go...

been through alot..
c our dreams shattered..
him slowly disappearing in my life...

trying to numb myself...
get goin out...
force a smile..
try to look happy..

deep inside..
no one really knows

qx is right...
no point goin out..
have fun...
trying to put a strong front...

no pt proving to everyone i'm fine
no pt acting to everyone that i'm happy now

when i'm not..

juz be myself...
juz cry

hai..
mayb..
i've cried so much...
there's no tears le..

hai..


listening to "zhen de"..

zhen de...

he's gone...

he's really in a world where i,
simone,
fen,
his ex-dear,
his ex-pig pig,

dun exist...

he's leading his new life somewhere..

he's really gone..


no matter how much i try..
he's gone.

hold my tears.

i hope i'm recovering...

i hope...
i wish...

hai..

too many memories...
too many shadows of him...


can;t hlp myself..
sms him..
care for him..
remind him...

i can;t stop...


i hope...
one day...

i can think of him..
as a fren..

tt's wat everyone wants from me..

but please.
i nid time.

simoney lost her way @ 4:22 PM